Pressing Pause

So, I'm not pregnant after our second try.  Which is... ok.  Because when I got antibiotics for the UTI, they weighed me.

O    M    G

My exact face when I saw what the nurse wrote down.

OMGOMGOMGOMG.
I can't even write the number.  I haven't told Hubs other than crying and declaring that I'm fat (he's wonderful and swears i'm not).

My Reactions

I used to keep a weight loss blog and I can't even fathom this - or how it got this bad.  To give a hint, if I had been pregnant, I would have been at risk for gestational diabetes.  As it is, the extra weight might have been affecting my fertility.  So, while it worries me that we didn't get pregnant already, I am kind of relieved that I'm not going to be the HUGE pregnant lady.

The day of the weigh-in, Hubs and I talked and decided that we are putting the baby-making on pause for December.  That will give us time to either get ready to move or decide to stay in our current place, be able to drink during the holidays, and, most importantly, lose weight.  I'm not expecting a 50 lb drop in one month, but I would like to get rid of about 15-20 lbs before we start the process again.

In other news, here are some random things:

• Ryan now has interviews at 7 different programs - Tampa, Miami, Gainesville FL, Seattle, SLC, Minnesota and New Jersey.
• I'm about to get crazy busy coordinating my coworker's wedding - so excited!
• We may have found a new place to live in Orlando (with a pool!)
• From tracking my ovulation we're starting to think I have a lazy ovary.  I've had weird/no readings on the monitor every other month since I started tracking my ovulation.  With the plan to skip December, that would have us trying in January on "wonky ovary" month - if they go back and forth.  So who knows when this will actually happen!

We'll see where this month takes us!

Better Luck Next Time

I had a post planned on how two negatives make a positive (maybe) because I've had two negative pregnancy tests but loads of pregnancy symptoms.

But I think I just started my period. 

Since Friday, I've been nauseous, dizzy, tired, have had a heightened sense of smell, and I had some light spotting, which I thought could be implantation bleeding. I thought that I might just be testing too early, but it appears that I'm just not pregnant.


UPDATE: Not pregnant.  Got my period today, and all the symptoms went away.  Searching the Internet revealed that lots of women have the same thing happen to them.  It sounds like fertilization happened, but implantation didn't - which happens to about 40% of fertilized eggs.

Downside: no baby.  Hubs was getting excited, and I hate for him to be disappointed.

Upside: "Heeeeeyyyyyy! We get to have more conception sex!!" - Hubs
And:

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WTF Digital Pregnancy Test?!

So, I've been thinking I'm not pregnant. 10 days into the 2WW and no symptoms other than bitchiness and crying easily. Could very easily be PMS.

Until today, where I've been kinda nauseous in addition. 

The nausea hit me around midday, so I made sure I had a "bladderful" when I left work. My fertility monitor came with pregnancy tests - digital ones - so, I came home and peed on it. Saw the hourglass rotating, put it in a drawer to come back to later. 

Chatted with hubs for a few minutes, then went back to look at the test...

Nothing. Blank screen. No hourglass, just nothing. 

"MOTHERF$@#%*!"

Aaaaand now I have to wait til tomorrow...